Time to light the candles
Aug. 15th, 2007 02:51 pmWell time to find all my candles and stuff and start the rituals again and reading my books again. I am not into the romance books right now so I will start on the others again.
I think I am just about ready to walk out of this marriage but not sure enough that is what I want yet. It is not about being alone because I am alone right now with David in Mexico and me here. I make all the decisions about things and take care of things and him. He says he is coming back and when he does he does not want me to work. Really he does not want me to go out of the house. Wrong I am going to end up pissing him off starting now because I am not staying home and I will wear what I want outside and I am going to live the way I want and if he does not like it he can either accecpt me and make it work or walk. Ya I am staying home right now but that is due to lack of money and the weather which is hot humid, humid and more humid. Storms moving in this evening.
So ok Sheila you will have to keep reminding me (gentley) about this.
On to other things. I want to see Hawk working out again. I highly doubt he would ever be interested in me but it is fun to look and have a few fantasies about him. The man is buff and man his back is defined and built, so are his arms and chest he also carries a six pack. Yummy!!!!!!!!
I really can not say why but G. does not appeal to me and neither does the one older mexican guy that goes in there. I don't know what appeals to me about Hawk but I want to lick the sweat off that man. I like guys with long hair and that are tall and well Hawk has short hair and is short, a small gold hoop in each ear and at least he has the rugged features that I like and not a babyface. So 5 1/2 days to go til we go to the gym again. I am waiting and not to patiently either.
I think I am just about ready to walk out of this marriage but not sure enough that is what I want yet. It is not about being alone because I am alone right now with David in Mexico and me here. I make all the decisions about things and take care of things and him. He says he is coming back and when he does he does not want me to work. Really he does not want me to go out of the house. Wrong I am going to end up pissing him off starting now because I am not staying home and I will wear what I want outside and I am going to live the way I want and if he does not like it he can either accecpt me and make it work or walk. Ya I am staying home right now but that is due to lack of money and the weather which is hot humid, humid and more humid. Storms moving in this evening.
So ok Sheila you will have to keep reminding me (gentley) about this.
On to other things. I want to see Hawk working out again. I highly doubt he would ever be interested in me but it is fun to look and have a few fantasies about him. The man is buff and man his back is defined and built, so are his arms and chest he also carries a six pack. Yummy!!!!!!!!
I really can not say why but G. does not appeal to me and neither does the one older mexican guy that goes in there. I don't know what appeals to me about Hawk but I want to lick the sweat off that man. I like guys with long hair and that are tall and well Hawk has short hair and is short, a small gold hoop in each ear and at least he has the rugged features that I like and not a babyface. So 5 1/2 days to go til we go to the gym again. I am waiting and not to patiently either.
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